This is for you

Your name still resonates in my head even when the present carries a new whisper within the trees.
My mouth still forms for you even as the past dwindles away.
My body still dreams of you...

To erase you, would be an injustice. To forget you, would be a crime.

There is a tear deep down, one that penetrates past the coping mechanisms and the therapy, one that remembers what was real.

This is a nod to what will continue to be unattainable.
This is the pain that surfaces when selfishness leads to impulsiveness.
This is what happens when impatience breaks both parties.

You can't make peace if you started a war.

An Extended End

I haven't moved on, I just got started.

This is the way pain feels when we just parted.

Understand,

I let go of your hand.

I didn't leave you high,

I had to take a moment to let this shit dry.

This water that rolled on me like a tsunami,

please don't lay this on me.

This shrapnel has penetrated what I only thought was inch thick steel.

This is how I feel.

Can't you see, I can't even sleep.

I weep. I creep.

Double edged swords cut healing scabs,

Got me walking around like a two legged crab.

There is no peace found in broken distilleries.

See loving you these past months made me be hit by 1,000 lbs artilleries.

They weren't set to stun,

no Life brought the big gun.

I had to let go,
I didn't want you to hear my no.
This wasn't an end;
my body couldn't tolerate the bend.
Please comprehend,
this isn't our end.