Things I Wish I Could Say and Letters I Wish I Could Write-2

I already miss you and it's only been a few hours since the deed has been done. I've cried sporadically throughout the day. You'd think I'd run out of tears, but no, they keep coming back.
I just can't grasp it yet.
It just
I regret not holding you when I was angry or too proud. I regret not kissing you, not grabbing your hand. I regret every moment I took for granted.
I miss you so much. I know we are still best friends but you know thats not all I want. I can't do anything.
I found your sock. I have your shirt. All these stupid items make me so happy and then the rush of sadness kicks in. Why? Because I won't be able to relive all those moments or have a chance to make new ones and that hurts.
I want you back but I can't have you. I keep hoping something magically changes and you'll call me and say you've changed your mind and that you want me back but I know it won't happen.
It's going to be a tough week.